Change the World [SKy-F]

Both sides...

2008-07-06T08:34:23Z

Rows and floes of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons evrywhere
Ive looked at clouds that way

But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on evryone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
Ive looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
Its cloud illusions I recall
I really dont know clouds at all

Moons and junes and ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As evry fairy tale comes real
Ive looked at love that way

But now its just another show
You leave em laughing when you go
And if you care, dont let them know
Dont give yourself away

Ive looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
Its loves illusions I recall
I really dont know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say I love you right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
Ive looked at life that way

But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say Ive changed
Well somethings lost, but somethings gained
In living evry day

Ive looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
Its lifes illusions I recall
I really dont know life at all
Ive looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
Its lifes illusions I recall
I really dont know life at all

Ewww

2008-07-06T05:58:54Z

Well well well.. una vez mas con un post en mala opcion...

Simeplemente quiero dar gracias a mis "amigos" por hacerme la vida tan facil gracias por sus comentarios tan calidos y chingones que me levantan el animo cabron.. pero bueno yo ahi ando de pendejo tambien invitandoles que vengan a puebla o que salgamos de antro... y bueno es un error que poco a poco ire puliendo.. ni ganas de hablar creo que se pusieron de acuerdo o algo asi.. es como esos dias que te mia un perro y te cae caca de pajaro al mismo tiempo... y no obstante llueve... tanto te cuidas que pasa un cabron en su auto y te moja todo... WOW soooooy tan feliz que poca madre de mis amigos no cabe duda que son unos cabrones verdad.. pero bueno como lo puse en mi nick.. a la verga bola de putos..

No les dare el gusto de comportarme como ustedes lo hacen para conmigo... porque ya me di cuenta que no vale la pena y mal-gasto mi tiempo... flojera... tengo mejores cosas en que ocuparme ahora.. y bueno porque no mencionar a la mierda de mi novio que encima de que ayer me hace sentir mal diciendome que quiere ir a verme y le digo que no porque es tarde que vaya a casa a descanzar y me responde "ahh pues ahi veo a ver que pasa" no cabe duda que todos son una bola de capullos bien hechos.. ojala y sea cierto eso de todo se regresa o algo asi.. el famoso kharma..

Ya X despues de desahogarme pues a ver que pasa mas tarde ahora soy yo a quein van a conocer..

AMIGOS GRACIAS POR LA AYUDA NETA NO SABEN COMO LOS ADORO SON UN AMOR DE PERSONA... Y OBVIO GRACIAS POR PONERSE DE ACUERDO Y UNO DE LOS DIAS EN QUE MAS NECESITE DE USTEDES ESTUVIERON AHI PARA METERME MAS EN UN PUTO HOYO.. GRACIAS NETO VALEN MIL COMO USTEDES NO MAS...Y BUENO DE MI NOVIO.. SI ES QUE AUN SE LE PUEDE LLAMAR ASI.. GRACIAS.. SOY UN PENDEJO NO CABE DUDA QUE ESTA MAL ENAMORARSE.. PFFFF

Fuck ya everybody bola de pendejos!!!

Next time I won't be there as be4

so have a happy life trip!

Chapter 1 Alone?

2008-06-25T01:51:38Z

Have you ever tought about to meet ppl randomly.. I tryed just to try to forget a lot of things or maybe just try to know some new ideas...

Chapter 1

Alone?

It was a crazy quickly week.. ewwww there's a lot of things that I wanna know but I'm going too fast and I dun wanna run.. life is a journey not a race... want to know more about every little thing that makes me happy, a kiss, a drop of tear, a lovely hug, the rain, the flowers, walk around the city, watch the ppl be angry or happy. I'm not alone in this world but it feels like that wish can find someone who can really share things with me.. I'm tired of listening how u get drunk.. why that makes u happy? I'm tired to know how much your friends miss me... am I so special? I'm tired of watch you walk in your own line while I'm walking in the other side.. we spoke the same language right? I'm tired of wait for you... How much I have to wait for you?

I was watching a drama called 천국의 계단 so sad story but I was so familiar with one of the characters.. maybe I'm not rich but I can do my own life for someone but this is always belong someone else.. what a pitty.. should I have to buy a car? LOL

Meeting ppl randomly let u know how much do u miss someone, how much can u wait for someone, how much this respect you, how long can u stay next to.. my main is not to meet ppl like this but I should try it then later I can see what I'm looking for.. the ONE who's not here, the ONE who's not belong to me. Is interesting to meet ppl coz u can know more about life and troubles that they had but always learn a new lesson to don't do it by urself and of course teach it someone else only in this way the ppl will be better... Show them how to live.. how to share.. how to feel... how to cry.. how to smile.. how to die.. how to LOVE then they will understand a diferent meaning of all this feelings and you will know if u work had affect on this persons; don't be so sad if they don't get it at first you should try and try and try and someone will be next to you.. as your friend.. as your lover.. as your family.. u must build your own family and the ones which u wanna grow up and evolve.

Since I met someone I tryed my best.. be happy, try to make him happy, try to make him smile.. anything but.. who cares me? they just wanna have party.. sex.. so sad.. but come on not all are the same right? maybe we can think that someone will be bored if don't do this kind of things.. maybe I'm bored.. I'm not use get into this things.. I can control myself talking about this.. but talking about love, friendship it's so different coz I can't control my feelings.. I'm always trying all my friends or lovers feel so cool to my side.. then why I'm still alone? why they can't filled me up? am I so hard to control or handle.. maybe.. my culture it's just diferent..

Please take my hand and let's run overseas to a place where nobody care of us... where nobody can tell us what to do.. where nobody can tell us that we can't love... like a sunflower who grows up in a big yard just following the sun.. like the clouds in the sky flying around all world without destination... like the love; loving oversears the ppl however they are; race, color, size, sex.. we're all the same but they just don't know how to show love..

Why they never have to be alone?

I can hear them shouting for hope...

What if u never have to be afraid?

If you have someone who can take your hand...

I'll take u in my arms and make u belong to me~

So hold my hand I'll take you there

Something happened that week...

                I was just hanging out with my best friend Eriol who is my big sista~ we were at the same place of always.. La Cigarra a very nice and small place where we can dance meet ppl etc... there was someone who we liked... small maybe like 5'7'' chubby dances pretty well.. small eyes like a japanese guy... We wanted to talk to him but it's so hard when u don't wanna know about guys so I dun wanna do it.. but I still like him.. anyway so we were dancing etc etc... like 3 am we were next to this guy he was dancing at the bar and we were down... then I go up the bar and start to dance and he started to dance wtih me.. what a shyness situation but was so weird but I just was havin' fun so I tryed to have fun. We starting talk and change phone numbers kinds like that..

               The thrusday we had a meeting at the Mariposa's coffee we were talkin' for a while then later we went to have dinner and drink something just a normal date in fact we were with his cousing and his friend. He bring me back to my home that was so kind of him we talked we kiss each other just like w/e and starts this new conversation and knowledging about try to reach the one who I'm searching for.. what a nice date! A new one! It will be good or just same?

              El proximo Viernes [The next friday] I'd a meeting with Charlie who I decided to come back... but after this new guy.. who give me hope, happiness, shiness... a new light... is that so good? So what I'm suposed to do... so I decided to canceled the date... but... it could be good? Keep going keep going.. the life must going on~

Feelings...

Kinda upset... about myself... met another guy when I was trying to fix the bad things with one.. but the love never ask for a reason.. there's no reason for that... Happy.. someone makes me happier than be4.. teached me some new things, new ways, new faces, new smiles... it's good to change the way u r when u r already tired or just mad or searching small things to drift appart...

And I was there.. Waiting for you...

But you'd never arrive..

You don't know but you hurt me..

while I was waiting for you

crying like a fool..

Someone else bring me his hand..

his smile.. his warmness.. his heart

I wanna cry in front of you

hoping this had never happened..

When I was began to lovign you crazily

the memories tried to find you

but there's one someone else...

I'm sorry if I forget you

I'm sorry if this illusion is exhausting..

I don't care about the oath that I gave you

but I wanna breath again,

I wanna smile again,

I wanna show them how I really am...

Lastitly..

I gave you my heart... and u lose it in the way...

in that way that you let me waiting for you

but you know what.. while I was waiting..

Someone else found it and give it me back

In some days we are going to drift appart

definetly coz I will try to give my heart to someone else..

someone who really can handle it,

take care of, bring it light and happiness.

Let me see ur last smile..

the one who make me fall in love for you

then just remind our smiles as now

as before.. as always~

Hello, Good-bye & Hello ♡

             We already talk but I dun wanna go back.. back to the same thing.. he asked to just forget everything.. my answer was.. Yes you're right we must forget everything.. even our relationship, coz I can't just forget the bad things.. how that stupid is..

             Disapointed? yeah sure he is or he was.. I'm not sure now but in this life the oportunities are only once so u take or just leave it.. wanna do something good? then just do it.. don't think so much about the things and just do it.. the best for you and ur lover.

I need to choose one? damn it I hate it coz it's not a dating game.

              I miss my friends.. Ppino, Xuxo, Bj.. etc etc... and obviously my family Flor, 용팔 형, 순정 누나.. but I'm still here just doing it by myself thinking, living, loving, smiling, laughing.. I know everyone have their own problems and one more come on~ ㅋㅋㅋ no more~

Meeting a guy..

Woah.. there's someone who makes me smile, give me his hand at street, singing to me randomly times, telling me I'm so beau and making me so good.. is it a good way? I'm so happy with this guy.. L is his nickname.. we are hanging out sometimes and we had very nice time togheter.. Wish can know if this will hurt me.. I dun wanna he were another number... another time to waste.. another guy.. we always must risk everything but never forget to smile.

Feelings~

I'm so happy right now with him

To my onni!

Hey what's happend with ya? is everything ok? I can't understand why u r like acting like this.. are u sad? depress? hating? happy? I'd never knonw it be4.. u never told me... I feel kinda desesperate coz I'm thinking u r having a bad time but how I can help you.. how someone can help u if u r just closed in your own jail... wish can find the key to leave u fly... u must be strong guys are not all in this life.. we'll don't die for love.. or some a guy.. STRONG!!! 화이팅!!!

Are you hating me? Do I something wrong to you? Don't have to be mad all time.. that will make you an amargado! >.< and don't say more excuses please.. take control of your life without any excuse ok? btw u know I'm here for anything u need.. just let me know and try to broke that jail that you create for urself

LIVE LOVE LAUGH!

You don't have to know everything in the life...

Just the things that's makes u happy!

                      So.. at the final we must say good-bye take care and keep going.. coz must be in this way.. enjoy our happy moments, our songs, our time, our sights... till now I'm not belong to u anymore.. and I dun wanna still losting my time thinking in my failure.. your failure I need keep going with my life and my own personal feelings.

                     Waking up early, a new day it's comming a new life it's just waiting in the corner.. let's get it and rock! As always I need to be happy... but WAIT! there's someone in the way... the same guy who I met before.. Gosh! so kind, so sweet, so warm.. bring me his hand, sing me randomly, taking my hand and make jealous the other boys waht a scene!!! So cool!

Take it easy men!! take it eaaaasy!!!

- Breath once more and walk...

Still doing what u know what to do...

- Humm.. it's make me wonder if this guy really could be different... well he's one year older than me so could be more mature than the other.. w/e

We hang out to the movie teather to watch Sex and the City.. damn it what a gay movie is that hahaha but so fucking funny I'd really love it and was so cool watch it next to him.

Not trying to ask about sexuality just let the things run away.. is that a good point?

Let's just everything as before a crazy, selfish, exotic, flirt and sexy guy.. who I was and who I love to be!

                      Well it's cool to know that someone want to care about u, sending u some sms telling how much he like u, how much he wanna stay next to you.. or just singing to you, taking ur hand, kissing so softly ur mouth or just do some tickles to you to make u laugh! so sweeeet~

Feelings:

So much betta than before.

Still wondering if could be a good reason to trust

We must risk in the life!

I want a boy who...

Can singing to me randomly.. Who can handle me.. who can make me laugh like no one, but mostly... Someone who can be my best friend and NEVER broke my heart!

You got mail~

- Humm.. wanna hang out today?

- Yeah sure ~

- Ok then let's meet at the coffe shop

- Sure I'll

So we met at the coffe and later we went to eat dinner near.. I had the idea to send him an sms telling him that he likes me.. so his answer was

- I like you so much u make me crazy and since yesterday there's something that I wanna tell u..

So my reaction was like - OMB! tell me whats that.. is everything ok? -

He only answer - I will tell u but not now.. and not here -

We were walking to the parking and then ride the car. In front of my house he just told me to my hear - Do u wanna be my bf? -

GOSH! what I have to say! - I tought... ... ... ... ...

In da bar

2008-06-06T12:51:16Z

Well today was a very strange day.. I mean I'm getting better and better I'll not die for someone or something and today I was at the bar just wanna drink a beer alone and see maybe some friends or anything just one different thing... I found some friends who hadn't meet long time ago so we were talking a lot...

I was telling them about I really began to hate being gay and that stuff.. and well they are kinda disapointed too about the same.. well makes me feel better hahaha I'm not the only one who have the same strange things or maybe it's like a virus hahaha~

I was talking with them I wasn't sad anymore just thinking.. and suddenly one of my friends send me a sms... It was my friend from Edmonton~ WOW!! It makes me feel so happy with his sms!!! which I added to this post.

☆ Chris 秦爱的谢谢我爱你 ☆

Stupid thing

2008-06-05T13:02:20Z

우와~ today I finally talked with that person who I tought never called me.. the things are getting better but at the same time I can't play it as before.. so I'm still tired and searching in my own travel what I'm really looking for.. maybe I'm still so fucking young to really think in things like that.. damn it we all wanna grow up but not in this way..

Hahaha this will sound so stupid but I was listening today the song "So Hot" of 원더걸스... it really helps me a lot hahahaha why? come on all we are hot in some way.. so it makes me feel so bitchy today hahaha all long day I was listening it LMAO now I'm trying to learning all lyrics am I so stupid? ㅋㅋㅋ

A long travel...

2008-06-04T11:57:41Z

I will do a travel.. travel about myself.. coz everybody hurts sometimes.. everybody cries.. Why life is like this.. ain't funny at all.. if as many ppl says... when u die u'll go to the paradise.. then.. What are we doing here? fighting for what?

I wanna do a travel.. a long travel.. in fact I dun wanna go back.. but well life is like this.. always u must try to be the best at least in one thing... we always must risk our life to know how to cry.. how to love.. how to smile.. how to be hurt.. but all that things that we will learn in this journey will help us in our future. Does anyone know really how to smile? I don't think so, in these days we only think in "Be happy" around the money but we already forget what's the love means... I do... so that's why I really need something better.. I wanna be the best.. for what if I don't know how to love.. if I don't know how to smile.. how to cry.. I can't be like a cold stone.

Dreaming as a bullshit in stupid things makes u better? Maybe you can reach for something closer to the real life like just have one place u can live, laugh, smile, enjoy and die.. when we really can find this place then we will be completly full of hapiness. Sometimes everything it's wrong and it's time to take it alone.. feeling like a worm in the earth... Shit...

Wish that the word "miss you" won't be so hurtful to me anymore but gosh you were part of my life so how I can forget u as like that fast.. but no.. you won't be here.. and again will be alone ask always.. maybe I should change my name to Mr Alone or something.. What makes the ppl happy? why I can't know this!!!

I'M SORRY I CAN'T BE HAPPY WITH ALL THIS SHIT!

Just like me.. Looking at the stars..

2008-06-03T13:40:35Z

And you will be belong someone too...

by now.. u must be... far away...

Just maybe.. like me... looking at the stars..

And again depress.. it's like a kind of game or something.. As I said "and you will be belong someone too" 아 씨발롬 난 진짜 너무 슬픈데!

I was talking with one friend and he told me that he really love me... WTF I'm doing.. searching Love in someone who doesn't exist.. and suddenly one cute guy appear in front on me and told me that he really love me.. How that can come? Someone can love you.. but u know that u can't love him back coz .. coz what?! How the hell I can now... I really need to know.. Should I have try? He's one of my cutest friend in all this whole I don't really wanna hurt him.. I thinks that's why.. excuse? affair? or just I'm so stupid that can't try it as well..

What I'm really looking for.. someone who can take care of me.. someone who can handle my drama.. someone who can handle mine? my selfish.. my wisdom.. my stupid feel.. I'm a fucking culture mixer.. Mexican with asian heart ♡ is that so stupid or maybe I'm bipolar hahaha I dun know but I really wanna know.. at the final I can't do another better thing that only be suicide.. Nahh I'm not so weak... maybe...

Damn it.. I'm writing stupid things.. Sorry I'm just missing someone since more than 1 year.. and now another.. and later someone who's belong to me.. but I can't why? I'm still don't know it..

형.. 난 날 보고싶어요 하지만 난 알아요.. 넌 날 사랑 안냐.. 그럼.. 괜찮아요.. 나 이해했어요..

well at the final he will never know.. I must star to forget him and everything relationated about him...

씨발!!! I'm still hating myself..

Disaponted..

2008-06-02T11:41:34Z

I'm felling kinda disapointed about the guys.. I mean.. all are the same.. I'm not same or as I remember I dun wanna do like them u know like when u wanna hang out with someone who u like and later.. pfff he nevers call u back or at least a sms telling that he dun wanna hang out or even he dun like u... fuck the hell...

This sat I talked with a friend who obviously I like him.. I asked him if he wanna hang out or just drink a coffee or something.. he said yes.. the sat we tought in go to the night club.. at the final he never called me I was there with my best friend but come on.. what are the guys thinking.. in fact my friend happened almost the same.. his guy never called him back. WTF!! I'm so fucking disapointed.. is it only me? I mean maybe I'm so fucking ugly or I like do drama I dun know but why this guys just shout u out that you're so stupid or ugly or w/e.. damn it.. I HATE WAIT FOR SOMEONE to the hell all...

Gay love doesn't exist.. I'm thinkin' in this situation so seriously.. so that's why there's a lot of sexual diseases.. are we doing something bad? how u can love someone if this just wanna have sex with ya' well at the final maybe it's just in gay world.. I hope so.. at least someone else can be happy coz since now I dun wanna try to love someone again.. sex it's ok but is not my main.. and of course not casual sex.. damn it! I think I'm hating me for being gay...

Is that so fucking bad? Anyone here know the love? real love?

Hardly Enough

2008-06-01T00:19:54Z

날짜:

Viernes

행복지수:

오늘 하루는.. Hardly Enough..

Hardly enough for all the trouble
Hardly enough to get it right
One more day and one more empty stare
Hardly enough for all the trouble
Gonna find my way back to where it started
Midwestern skyline is where my heart is
This town can be so ugly
Makes you feel so ordinary
You’ll say it’s not enough
It’s not enough it’s just not enough
Hardly enough for all the trouble
Hardly enough to get it right
Change it comes so easily
When there’s nothing left to lose it seems
Just take this hand and run with me
Together we can leave
Hardly enough for all the trouble
Hardly enough to get it right
Hardly enough for all the trouble
Hardly enough to get it right
We will never be the same
We will never be the same
Things will never be the same

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Friendship..

2008-05-31T13:51:08Z

What the friendship means?

does anyone know the meaning of this word... sometimes I'm not sure at all... Sometimes I think it's like "love" wish I can know it and at the final can understand a lot of things that makes me crazy sometimes.. makes me happy and sad, depress and exited.. damn it it's that so fucking hard? Why this kind of words are always so confusing or it's just me who think like that.. at the final it's always the same just things that make u happy and sad at the same time..

Friendship is a term used to denote co-operative and supportive behavior between two or more humans. This article focuses on the notion specific to interpersonal relationships. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, and affection along with a degree of rendering service to friends in times of need or crisis. Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behavior, such as exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviors. Yet for many, friendship is nothing more than the trust that someone or something will not harm them.

Friendship in different countries

Russia
The relationship is constructed differently in different cultures. In Russia, for example, one typically accords very few people the status of "friend". These friendships however make up in intensity what they lack in number. Friends are entitled to call each other by their first names alone, and to use diminutives. A norm of polite behaviour is addressing "acquaintances" by full first name plus patronymic. These could include relationships which elsewhere would be qualified as real friendships, such as workplace relationships of long standing, neighbors with whom one shares an occasional meal and visit, and so on. Physical contact between friends is expected, and friends, whether or not of the same sex, will embrace, sometimes kiss and walk in public with their arms around each other, or arm-in-arm, or hand-in-hand.

Modern west
In the Western world, intimate physical contact has been sexualized in the public mind over the last one hundred years and is considered almost taboo in friendship, especially between two males. However, stylized hugging or kissing may be considered acceptable, depending on the context (see, for example, the kiss the tramp gives the kid in The Kid). In Spain and other Mediterranean countries men may embrace each other in public and kiss each other on the cheek. This is not limited solely to older generations but rather is present throughout all generations. In young children throughout the modern western world, friendship, usually of a homosocial nature, typically exhibits elements of a closeness and intimacy suppressed later in life in order to conform to societal standards.

WELCOME BACK

2008-05-22T01:13:45Z

Well and finally I'm back doing my blog just to tease some ppl or just to talk about everything.. I'd been doing a lot of things bad and good news are coming, as the life of everybody's goin'.. up and down.. the life is like that.. I was seeing the hompy of my 형 and I heard the song of his 싸이 called 기억을 걷는 시간 what a nice song it's hard to translate it into english or also spanish but it means about the remembers about trough the life..

I was trying to do more impresive my blog but not many ppl comes here to visit me... and the ones that enter here doesn't give me a message or something so w/e it will be like a diary about myself~

So enjoy it myself ㅋㅋㅋ

☆ I found this pic about one toilet ad in Korea well in fact wasn't 2 guys... it was a boy and girl but I think this look funnier than the other one LOL~ can you believe in found one toilet like that hahaha it will be so fucking funny... btw ain't impossible to do this.. why? Just the mind of the ppl is not open yet to see how the love is..

★ Love is a feeling not a sex [male or female] love everything on this world coz the life is just one and we must be try to be happy.. You don't have to know all about the life... just the things that makes u happy! Like the bus takes u to your destination.. you have to enjoy it~

Happy Start!!

우와~~~

2008-01-17T02:54:50Z

멕시코에게.. 코카콜라~ 한국어로~ 맞아!!! >.<

Waiting for your call...

2008-01-17T02:44:15Z

you

음.. 정말? 이렇개 보아 ㅋㅋ

2007-11-15T06:37:20Z

La madre en espanol mexicano es...

2007-10-27T10:19:13Z

TODO LO QUE SIGNIFICA LA MADRE PARA LOS MEXICANOS...
Alegria....................Que a toda Madre
Ubicacion geografica........Donde esta Madre
Valor dietetico.............Tragate esa Madre ya!!
Adjetivo calificativo.......Que poca Madre tienes...
Escepticismo................No te creo ni Madres
Venganza....................Vamos a darle en la Madre
Accidente...................Se dio en la Madre
Efecto visual...............No se ve ni madres
Sentido del olfato..........Huele a Madres
Especulacion................Que Madres es eso??
Superlativo.................A todisisima Madre
Expresion de alegria........Está Poca Madre!!!
Sorpresa....................Madresss!!!
Exceso de velocidad.........Va hecho la Madre
Egoismo.....................No me dio ni Madres...
Sentido del gusto...........Eso sabe a Madres
Pasado imperfecto...........No tuviste Madre
Como accion.................Vamos a hacer esa Madre
Accion violenta.............Le rompiste toditita su Madre!!!
Animo.......................Andale con esa Madre!!
Desorden....................Qué desmadre te traes!!
Despectivo..................Vales para pura Madre!
lquimista..................Lo que toca le da en la Madre
Juramento...................Por mi Madre
Mecanica....................Y esta Madre como funciona??
Fracaso.....................Ya valió Madres...!!
Reclamo.....................Que poca Madre tienes....
Negativa rotunda............Ni Madres!!!

P.D.Y sin olvidarnos de el dicho 'Madre...solo hay una'